Alone…

As yet another tiring week passes by,

As I get closer to the most awaited weekend…

I remember all those old weekends we spent together

And then, it gets tougher to go home & stay there alone!!!

As I still live in the same city, near his old house

As I pass by the same lanes & same places…

I remember all our walks on those streets together

And then it makes no sense to be in the same city so alone!!!

As we share a few common friends,

As those friends are still in touch…

I remember all those outings to best of pubs together

And then it HURTS so much to avoid them, just to be alone!!!

~ Rups ~ ~~~~ 17th August 2007, Friday ~~~~

Why don't they understand,

Those who leave, without saying 'GoodBye'?

Why do I have to see the truth in Mirror?

Why the Mirrors don't even try to Lie?

...

abhi toh jagey hai ... usike khwabo se..
Abhi toh nikale hai ... usike khayalo se ..
Kuch aur is khumari me rehne do ...
Shayad yeh dinn bhi phir hasseen katey!




~ Rups ~

...Chahtey Hai...

Bahot so chukey abbtakk
Abb thoda jaganaa chahtey hai;
Kisikey soyi soyi ankho me ...
Raat bhar khona chahtey hai!!!

Bahot khamosh rahe abbtakk,
Abb thodi baatey karna chahtey hai;
kisiki aahaton ko sunanaa hai...
kisiki dhadkano me khona chahtey hai!!!

Bahot chaltey rahe abbtakk,
Abb thoda ruknaa chahtey hai;
Kisika haath thaame baithna hai...
Kisiki aghoshh me simatna chahtey hai!!!

Bahot saansey lee abbtakk,
Abb thoda JEENA chahtey hai;
Kisiki ‘jaan’ bankar dekhnaa hai...
Kisime rooh bankar jeena chahtey hai!!!

~ Rups ~

Kya Haseen Yeh Khayaal hai ..
Ki aapkey Khayalo me khoye rahey;
Raatbhar tehaltey rahey chhatt par
Chaand me aapko talaashtey rahey!

15th March 2007, Bangalore

... a B'day Song ..

Wish you were here, with me ,
Wish we were together on this special day,
Wish I could've celebrated it in my own special way,
However, it seems wishes don't come true anymore,
It seems things for you are better this way...
... Guess, you are much happier when you are away!

Still, i wanted to WISH you a WONDERFUL B'DAY
Wished to see you SMILING ... today, tomorrow & every other day...

I kept wondering all night yesterday - what gift can i present to you?
I wondered what's that one thing that'll ensure you remain happy forever?
I got the answer - in all your past words to me ...
It was my absence!!!
-Not that it would have meant much to you,
Same as my presence...
But here is my Gift to you, My Beloved Friend...
On this very day, from your life, I move away... Far Far Away.... !!!

Still, i wanted to WISH you a WONDERFUL B'DAY
Wished to see you SMILING ... today, tomorrow & every other day...
That's what i wished to do - before I could go away!

~Rups
Couldn't get a Cake, Couldn't get a bouquet;
Couldn't even meet, Couldn't even wish, him
'Cos I wasn't needed, I wasn't missed...
So, I penned my wishes ... In this b'day song for him.