Saturday, September 15, 2007

... क्या कहना ?

शब-भर रहे इंतज़ार तेरा , शब-भर इसी तलब में जगना;
सुबह तुझको रूबरू पाना; उस सुबह का क्या कहना ?

बारीश के थमने पर भी, आब- - चश्म का बहना ...
हर एक अश्क़ में तेरा रुखसार, उस अश्क़ का क्या कहना ?

कभी यादें, कभी कशीश, कभी आरज़ू, कभी ख़लिश ...
कभी तेरी तड़प में जीना, उस तड़प का क्या कहना ?

गीला नहीं की उम्रभर , तुझी को ढूँढती रही नज़र ...
आख़िरी घड़ी तू नज़र आये , उस घड़ी का क्या कहना ?

~ Rups ~
एक ऐसी ही हसीं घड़ी - जब तू मेरे साथ हो;
थम जाये ज़िंदगी - जब तू मेरे साथ हो !!!

Abb takk hichaki lagi nahi


Abbtakk lagi nahi, eik bhi hichaki -

Shayad kisiney yaad kiya nahi;

Dhadkane bhi chalti rahi jyo ke tyo-

Kisiney pyaar se jo pukaraa nahi !!


Sust sei rahi aankhe dinbhar

Deedar-e-chiraag abtakk hua nahi;

Shaam ke dhaltey aur bhi bechain hui

Lekin kisiney pyar se sulaya nahi !!


Socha tha mahtaab ke saath saath

Ussey bhi rubaroo ho jayenge ...

Lekin aaj ki siyaah raat ke chaltey

fakat wohi nazar ayaa nahi !!


Yoon toh abb takk so jaatey,

Lekin khamosh badaa manzar hai...

Isee umeed pe hai abtak jagey

Ke dastak dete wo aa jaye yahin !!


~ Rups ~

10th April 2007, 3:10am, B'lore

Friday, September 14, 2007

...Just to Say "GoodBye"

I know I was missing him throughout the weekend;

Finally I got to see him by Sunday End…

He brought the usual smile on my lips that night;

But what was gonna happen next..Oh! I didn’t realize…

He made me laugh,

He made me smile,

He made me dream,

He made me think,

He made me write,

He made me sing,

He made me dance,

He made me fly…

All this…. Just to say… Goodbye!!!

We had some tea, after a game of chess,

Still bearing the pain within, that I couldn’t suppress;

So, I decided to tell him… he was dearly missed…

But to him it sounded so stupid, that he dismissed!

And then he asked me subtly to stay away…

Till then, I didn’t realize…

He made me laugh,

He made me smile,

He made me dream,

He made me think,

He made me write,

He made me sing,

He made me dance,

He made me fly…

All this…. Just to say… Goodbye!!!

~Rups~

30th April 2007, 6:40am, Bangalore


Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Commitment or Closure?


Commitment: A lifelong affair
Closure: A one-min breakup

Commitment: Tough & Scary
Closure: The easiest Safe-exit

Commitment: A cage in making
Closure: Freedom for life

Commitment: Caring & Sharing
Closure: Ignoring & Hurting

Commitment: Dream come True
Closure: Sleepless nights

Commitment: A ‘wanted’ addiction
Closure: Detachment & Nirvana

Commitment: Back to Life
Closure: A Dead End

Commitment: 2 hearts, one love
Closure: No Heart, No love

Commitment: Make-a-Life
Closure: Life? What Life?

Commitment: A ‘Yes’ :)
Closure: A ‘No’ :(

~Rups~
11th September 2007 … A faded Evening…

So, What’s wiser?
Commitment or closure?

Role-Reversal?


When the good plays bad
& the bad plays ugly,
What does the ugly play?


When the ‘present’ calls quit,
What does the future do?


When Friends play foe,
What does foe do?


When love does all the hurting,
What does hatred do?


When heart does the thinking,
What does the brain do?


When God plays the devil,
What does the devil do?


When “life” kills you,
What does death do?


~ Rups ~
11th September 2007 …. Bangalore... Hate this date!
When proximity distances us,
What does a "closure" do?

Monday, September 10, 2007

Why does one chooses to ignore someone?


Though it’s quite obvious to understand that I’m not discussing strangers here; let me make it explicit: I’m talking about those who choose to comfortably “Ignore” their own people. These people aren’t on the ignorer’s ‘General Acquaintances’ list nor on their ‘I-don’t-Care-for” list; at least this is what is being conveyed to them. Then WHY are they ignored? And always?

Either the one who’s ignoring have set wrong expectation with respect to the importance level of that person – with that person! In this case, it’s easier to escape by being blunt in conveying a ‘Once-&-for-all’ message of “I-Really-Don’t-Care-for-you” to the person being ignored. But why don't they do that? Are they too ignorant for this too?

OR it’s possible that the one who is being ignored is actually important – but is not supposed to be shown his/her worth & the simplest way to convince this is to ignore them – always! Looks like a rare scenario to me!

But what compels a person ‘A’ to “IGNORE” the presence of a person ‘B’ – esp. when B adores A? Is it the fear of showing involvement? Fear of wrong expectation-setting? Sheer joy of seeing some1 hurt? The kick one gets out of seeing the helplessness of one’s emotional state of mind? Or the feeling of being in Control? What is it? What it can possibly be?

Why?
Why does one chooses to ignore someone? Someone who adores them?
Why does one chooses to hurt someone? Someone whose only wish is to see them happy?
Why does it happen that in spite of getting ignored & hurt, we continue to love someone?
Why doesn’t the pain overtake our emotions & we decide to give up on that person?
Why does one becomes more & more forgiving, in spite of one’s ruthlessness?
Why do we cherish every single memory of someone – who doesn’t even know we exist?
Why do we believe in miracles, when we see someone special thrashing our dreams?
Why do we choose to remain silent, every time when that ‘special someone’ makes us cry?
Why do we choose to live in a pseudo-world of love n harmony, in spite of hatred around?
Why do we crave for one instance of attention from someone, who simply chooses to ignore us?
Why do we "pretend" this ignorant behavior doesn’t matter – neither do the person?
Why do we, somewhere deep inside still desire for someone – who has been ignoring us?
Why?

~ Rups ~
9th September 2007, 11:55pm; Bangalore
Why can’t I reciprocate to every instance of ignorance – with ignorance?
Why can’t my likes n dislikes be controlled by me – likes & dislikes beyond the materialistic world!