न ‘तड़प’ से वास्ता था,
और न ही ‘चाहतो’ से;
धड़कने भी थी मद्धम –
बस, एक साल पहले …
न रातो को जागते थे,
न दर्द ये होते थे,
न तन्हाई से थी नफ़रत,
बस, एक साल पहले …
न ताकते थे रास्ते,
हम किसीके वास्ते;
न दील टूटता था –
बस, एक साल पहले …
न ख्वाब देखते थे,
न इंतेज़ार करते थे,
न ‘करिश्मे’ की थी हसरत –
बस, एक साल पहले …
न जीने का था शौक,
और ना ही थी ज़रूरत,
न ज़िंदगी से थे वाकीफ़ –
बस, एक साल पहले …
‘वजूद’ को मीला एक चेहरा,
‘चाहत’ को मीला एक नाम,
सीर्फ साल-भर की ज़िंदगी मीली –
बस, एक साल पहले …
बस, एक साल पहले …
~ Rups ~ 28th January 2008 ~ Bangalore
Last year, This Day, This time !!!
One year of Life, the Only year with Life?
By the end of an usual day,
A usual day without you,
Pondering on my recent past,
The recent past with you…
Unfolding the memories
Carefully and discreetly,
Revisiting the lost moments
Which we shared silently…
Peaceful makeup after small fights …
Our long walks & those bike rides,
Silly challenges & changing sides,
Stealing a glance even across a mile,
Exchanging a quick secret smile…
Keeping away, just to get-together,
Saying sometimes: ‘Oh! Pl don’t bother’
Preparing tea & cooking meals,
Kissing n telling how it feels…
Your eyes seemed so honest…
So did your unspoken words!
And now I need to say this…
Even if it may hurt…
"No, I don’t miss you!
& believe me it’s true…
‘Cos I miss your LIES-
more than I miss you…"
~Rups~
16th January 208 @ 203,
Abbtalak Quaatil ka sajdaa
kartey aaye hai…
Aur waqt-e-qatl pe bhi
hum muskuraaye hai;
Magar ye jaankar ki usney
sazaa-e-zindagi de di…
Bahot tootey, Bahot tootey !!!
Mohabbat thi, Mohabbat ki –
tumhi ne di ijaazat thi;
Uss mohabbat ke dhalne par...
Bahot tootey, Bahot tootey !!!
Shab-e-Sohbat ki thi barkat,
tumhe bhi thi meri chaahat;
Wo sohbat bann gayi jo rukhsat,
Bahot tootey, Bahot tootey !!!
Tere darwaaze pe aakar bhi
De na paaye they dastakk;
Teri thokar ko karkey yaad
Bahot tootey, bahot tootey !!!
~ Rups ~ 9th December 2007, Bangalore
"Zindagi tab bhi thi qaayam,
Zindagi abb bhi hai qaayam,
Jaankar isee haqeeqat ko –
Bahot tootey, bahot tootey!!!"
Abbtakk lagi nahi, eik bhi hichaki -
Shayad kisiney yaad kiya nahi;
Dhadkane bhi chalti rahi jyo ke tyo-
Kisiney pyaar se jo pukaraa nahi !!
Sust sei rahi aankhe dinbhar
Deedar-e-chiraag abtakk hua nahi;
Shaam ke dhaltey aur bhi bechain hui
Lekin kisiney pyar se sulaya nahi !!
Socha tha mahtaab ke saath saath
Ussey bhi rubaroo ho jayenge ...
Lekin aaj ki siyaah raat ke chaltey
fakat wohi nazar ayaa nahi !!
Yoon toh abb takk so jaatey,
Lekin khamosh badaa manzar hai...
Isee umeed pe hai abtak jagey
Ke dastak dete wo aa jaye yahin !!
10th April 2007, 3:10am, B'lore
I know I was missing him throughout the weekend;
Finally I got to see him by Sunday End…
He brought the usual smile on my lips that night;
But what was gonna happen next..Oh! I didn’t realize…
He made me laugh,
He made me smile,
He made me dream,
He made me think,
He made me write,
He made me sing,
He made me dance,
He made me fly…
All this…. Just to say… Goodbye!!!
We had some tea, after a game of chess,
Still bearing the pain within, that I couldn’t suppress;
So, I decided to tell him… he was dearly missed…
But to him it sounded so stupid, that he dismissed!
And then he asked me subtly to stay away…
Till then, I didn’t realize…
He made me laugh,
He made me smile,
He made me dream,
He made me think,
He made me write,
He made me sing,
He made me dance,
He made me fly…
All this…. Just to say… Goodbye!!!
~Rups~
30th April 2007, 6:40am,
