... क्या कहना ?

शब-भर रहे इंतज़ार तेरा , शब-भर इसी तलब में जगना;
सुबह तुझको रूबरू पाना; उस सुबह का क्या कहना ?

बारीश के थमने पर भी, आब- ए - चश्म का बहना ...
हर एक अश्क़ में तेरा रुखसार, उस अश्क़ का क्या कहना ?

कभी यादें, कभी कशीश, कभी आरज़ू, कभी ख़लिश ...
कभी तेरी तड़प में जीना, उस तड़प का क्या कहना ?

गीला नहीं की उम्रभर , तुझी को ढूँढती रही नज़र ...
आख़िरी घड़ी तू नज़र आये , उस घड़ी का क्या कहना ?

~ Rups ~
एक ऐसी ही हसीं घड़ी - जब तू मेरे साथ हो;
थम जाये ज़िंदगी - जब तू मेरे साथ हो !!!

Abb takk hichaki lagi nahi

Abbtakk lagi nahi, eik bhi hichaki -

Shayad kisiney yaad kiya nahi;

Dhadkane bhi chalti rahi jyo ke tyo-

Kisiney pyaar se jo pukaraa nahi !!

Sust sei rahi aankhe dinbhar

Deedar-e-chiraag abtakk hua nahi;

Shaam ke dhaltey aur bhi bechain hui

Lekin kisiney pyar se sulaya nahi !!

Socha tha mahtaab ke saath saath

Ussey bhi rubaroo ho jayenge ...

Lekin aaj ki siyaah raat ke chaltey

fakat wohi nazar ayaa nahi !!

Yoon toh abb takk so jaatey,

Lekin khamosh badaa manzar hai...

Isee umeed pe hai abtak jagey

Ke dastak dete wo aa jaye yahin !!

~ Rups ~

10th April 2007, 3:10am, B'lore

...Just to Say "GoodBye"

I know I was missing him throughout the weekend;

Finally I got to see him by Sunday End…

He brought the usual smile on my lips that night;

But what was gonna happen next..Oh! I didn’t realize…

He made me laugh,

He made me smile,

He made me dream,

He made me think,

He made me write,

He made me sing,

He made me dance,

He made me fly…

All this…. Just to say… Goodbye!!!

We had some tea, after a game of chess,

Still bearing the pain within, that I couldn’t suppress;

So, I decided to tell him… he was dearly missed…

But to him it sounded so stupid, that he dismissed!

And then he asked me subtly to stay away…

Till then, I didn’t realize…

He made me laugh,

He made me smile,

He made me dream,

He made me think,

He made me write,

He made me sing,

He made me dance,

He made me fly…

All this…. Just to say… Goodbye!!!

~Rups~

30^th April 2007, 6:40am, Bangalore

Commitment or Closure?

Commitment: A lifelong affair
Closure: A one-min breakup

Commitment: Tough & Scary
Closure: The easiest Safe-exit

Commitment: A cage in making
Closure: Freedom for life

Commitment: Caring & Sharing
Closure: Ignoring & Hurting

Commitment: Dream come True
Closure: Sleepless nights

Commitment: A ‘wanted’ addiction
Closure: Detachment & Nirvana

Commitment: Back to Life
Closure: A Dead End

Commitment: 2 hearts, one love
Closure: No Heart, No love

Commitment: Make-a-Life
Closure: Life? What Life?

Commitment: A ‘Yes’ :)
Closure: A ‘No’ :(

~Rups~
11th September 2007 … A faded Evening…
So, What’s wiser?
Commitment or closure?

Role-Reversal?

When the good plays bad
& the bad plays ugly,
What does the ugly play?


When the ‘present’ calls quit,
What does the future do?


When Friends play foe,
What does foe do?


When love does all the hurting,
What does hatred do?


When heart does the thinking,
What does the brain do?


When God plays the devil,
What does the devil do?


When “life” kills you,
What does death do?


~ Rups ~
11th September 2007 …. Bangalore... Hate this date!
When proximity distances us,
What does a "closure" do?

Why does one chooses to ignore someone?

Though it’s quite obvious to understand that I’m not discussing strangers here; let me make it explicit: I’m talking about those who choose to comfortably “Ignore” their own people. These people aren’t on the ignorer’s ‘General Acquaintances’ list nor on their ‘I-don’t-Care-for” list; at least this is what is being conveyed to them. Then WHY are they ignored? And always?

Either the one who’s ignoring have set wrong expectation with respect to the importance level of that person – with that person! In this case, it’s easier to escape by being blunt in conveying a ‘Once-&-for-all’ message of “I-Really-Don’t-Care-for-you” to the person being ignored. But why don't they do that? Are they too ignorant for this too?

OR it’s possible that the one who is being ignored is actually important – but is not supposed to be shown his/her worth & the simplest way to convince this is to ignore them – always! Looks like a rare scenario to me!

But what compels a person ‘A’ to “IGNORE” the presence of a person ‘B’ – esp. when B adores A? Is it the fear of showing involvement? Fear of wrong expectation-setting? Sheer joy of seeing some1 hurt? The kick one gets out of seeing the helplessness of one’s emotional state of mind? Or the feeling of being in Control? What is it? What it can possibly be?

Why?
Why does one chooses to ignore someone? Someone who adores them?
Why does one chooses to hurt someone? Someone whose only wish is to see them happy?
Why does it happen that in spite of getting ignored & hurt, we continue to love someone?
Why doesn’t the pain overtake our emotions & we decide to give up on that person?
Why does one becomes more & more forgiving, in spite of one’s ruthlessness?
Why do we cherish every single memory of someone – who doesn’t even know we exist?
Why do we believe in miracles, when we see someone special thrashing our dreams?
Why do we choose to remain silent, every time when that ‘special someone’ makes us cry?
Why do we choose to live in a pseudo-world of love n harmony, in spite of hatred around?
Why do we crave for one instance of attention from someone, who simply chooses to ignore us?
Why do we "pretend" this ignorant behavior doesn’t matter – neither do the person?
Why do we, somewhere deep inside still desire for someone – who has been ignoring us?
Why?

~ Rups ~
9th September 2007, 11:55pm; Bangalore
Why can’t I reciprocate to every instance of ignorance – with ignorance?
Why can’t my likes n dislikes be controlled by me – likes & dislikes beyond the materialistic world!

... Missing Someone?

Tanhaai mein humney Aeena dekhna chod diya
Humarey aks me unkee tasweer dikhayi padti hai;
Abb toh khamoshi mein bhi sukoon nahin milta
Usee gair-maujood ki awaaz sunaayi padti hain !!!

~ Rups ~

Kabtakk khaali aahaton se, raat-raat hum jagey?
Koi aahat aisi bhi ho - jiska ilzaam unpey lagey…!

~ 4th Sept '07, Bangalore

Just 'One'

It takes just one match stick to light a fire;

It takes just one blow of air to put off one.

It takes just one determination to win a race;

It takes just one fear of loss to give up.

It takes just one missed beat to win a heart;

It takes just misdeed to break one.

It takes just one handshake to make a friend;

It takes just one backstab to loose one.

It takes just one dream to a sound sleep;

It takes just one nightmare to disturb one.

It takes just one wrong word to cause hurt;

It takes just one sincere apology to make up.

It takes just one tear to feel helpless;

It takes just one friendly hug to console!

It takes just one ‘special’ person to love;

It takes just one acknowledgment to feel loved.

It takes just one strong bond to form a relation;

It takes just one Love to take it further…

It takes just one hope to carry on with life;

It takes just one disaster to give up…

~Rups~

29^th August 2007, PH-Kormangla, Bangalore

Bepardaa naa karo zakhmo ko...!

Abtakk jo chupaye rakhe hai, beparda na karo un zakhmo ko;

Is zamaney me marham se zyada, namak sasta miltaa hai !!

Mitti ke baney logo me, kuch paththar ke but bhi miltey hai;

Abb Paththar se dil takraye gar, toh thoda dard hota hi hai !!

Haan kuch tabdeeli hui toh hai, tez daudte insaano me;

Suna hai aajkal Chaahat ke badley, dard nawaaza jaata hai !!

Who har pal jo aaj hai kareeb, usime jeena seekh lo;

Palon ki ahmiyat ko tootatey, waqt kahaa lagtaa hai?

Ashqo ki sachchai me abb, logo ko dilchaspi kahaa?

Magar muskaan farzi bhi ho, usey khoob sarahaa jataa hai !

Apno me baney kuch rishto me buss yahi ek dikkat hai;

Gar unka anjaam na ho, to rishtey ko thukraaya jaata hai !!

Har safar ko waqt ke tarazu me napaa nahi kartey …

Kuch raastey aise bhi hotey hai, jinki manzilo ka nishaa miltaa nahi !!

~ Rups ~

22^nd April, 2007; 7.50 a.m.; Bangalore ;
After an hour’s walk from home to office….

Garr chaahat ho chaand ki, to raato ko jagnaa padta hai;

Waisey bhi aashiqo ka neend se, waasta hi kya hotaa hai?

Are we still "Ruled"…?

“He came, he saw, he conquered…”
…If this seems like a thing of past to you, think again! Also, you may try replacing ‘He’ in the above statement to ‘she’…Does something click?

Every single soul, in this whole wide world, at some point of time, is either ‘ruled’ by some person or takes charge as a ‘ruler’. The only difference is neither the ‘ruling’ nor the ‘ruled-over’ symptoms are made explicitly apparent to others. Still, it does exist.

Take a simple case of someone in love – true love (?) – His/her world virtually revolves around a single person – most of the times. Right from the first instance when we miss a beat, to the last drop of tear (or a silent sob) – everything is triggered by a single person; who rules us! If you are in love, or had been in love; you might’ve experienced this by now in some or the other form. If not, you probably belong to the ruling partyJ which by the way is not a permanent state!

So, is the probability of we getting ruled by someone limited to ‘Lovey-Dovey’ phase of our lives? Well, I won’t suggest that. Even as kids, we are controlled, if not ruled, by our parents. Now, okay, that is something which takes care of us until we grow; and thus, may sound a ‘must-have’. But in western countries, isn’t the degree of ‘parental control’ much milder than what we see in India? India – where some kids refuse to grow up, even at 20-something; and their parent’s tag this behavior as ‘Obedience/Respect’ etc! In such cases, marital knot brings in yet another ‘soul-to-be-controlled’ for the ruling parents! And guess what? – The ‘kid’ in question serves his/her entire life as an eye-witness with hardly any say or intention to improve the situation.

If you didn’t felt controlled during your childhood, welcome to college life! Esp. while doing professional courses, like Engineering/Medical/IIT/IIM, it’s the set of highly experienced rulers, named ‘Professors/Lecturers/Principals/Hostel Wardens/Lab assistants’ who rule us. This bunch is God-gifted with various creative techniques of torturing/controlling the sinful lot, named ‘The Students’! The smarter set of ‘students’ who manage to bypass the wrath of faculty, have higher chance of encountering it by their final exams and/or campus interviews.

Later and much larger stage of our lives – as professionals, how can one deny the highly controlling species called ‘The Boss’? If you have been lucky – throughout your childhood AND college days, you are bound to face the music in your professional lives! Of late, I heard one of my close friend (& a pretty successful manager) say, “It’s not a ‘Company’, nor it’s your ‘Team’; U work for your boss – whether you like it or not – that’s the fact!”. I must say, that statement irritated me to the core; but later I realized ‘every bitter truth sucks’! So, if you don’t want to surrender to a ‘Boss-cum-Ruler’, try being your own boss (And rule your employees) J Yeah, good idea, be an entrepreneur – just to discover a huge list of ‘Rulers’ like: Customer, Market Share, competition, Stability, Finances, Growth, labor laws, Brand building & the list goes on…

Even in a life of most simple, passive, subtle, submissive, laid-back person, there are a host of ‘rulers’ that controls their lives! Rulers like – Happiness, Sadness, Money, Solitude, Addictions, Phobias, Beauty, Health, Wealth, Poverty, Relationships, Dreams, Spirituality, Nirvana, Death, … still makes way to rule us!

Amidst of all these Worldly Rulers, sometimes, we rebel; sometimes, we fight; sometimes we loose; sometimes we win… And sometimes, we choose to surrender, for a long term benefit (for example: for being together forever with your loved ones, we tend to surrender!)…

So, is getting ‘RULED’ a part of our lives? OR is it practically possible to achieve a true sense of ‘Freedom’, or at least believe in some such thing while we are still ruled?

~ Rups~ 26th August 2007